fear

What's your biggest fear? At the core of your existence, what are you most afraid of? Are you willing to share it? Are you willing to own it? Are you able to do something about it? Can you make it through the day without thinking about it? Does the thought alone suffocate you? Would your life be worth living without the fear of your biggest fear? ....mine, would not...

breakthrough

I've reach a significant milestone breakthrough in my weight loss goals today! Whoo hooo..yay me! That is all. :-)

pressure

Much the way that a cutter would describe a feeling of comfort and relief while indulging in their taboo ritual, I would describe a similar feeling when referencing my indulgent fantasies of a simplistic life and state of mind.

Bend anything too far and the weight of that pressure is sure to cause a snap for relief. There’s something about the idea that at any moment an object under great pressure could snap which intrigues me as I continue to push the limits of pressure out of my own shear curiosity and will.

“When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure”.~Peter Marshall

it's kind of like yogurt

blogging, that is (stay with me here). I have this thing about yogurt. I love it in phases, one month I'm on and the next..well you know. That seem to be my formidable relationship with this blog as well. So, today...I'm on it like yogurt. :)

I've had some thoughts bouncing around in my mind lately. Thoughts consisting mostly of frustration, contempt and discourse about certain circumstances in my life that seem beyond my control. This lack of control is an area of awkward ickiness for me. I admittedly, do not like disorder or scattered ideas. I prefer to explore ideas, seek information, categorize and find logical order to my thoughts. Unfortunately, that can be difficult when dealing with people that are completely oblivious.

But, I know that by moving on, moving forward and making a new plan I can regain some of the control over these circumstances in my life. Which I know that I can do, by remembering this mantra. There is nothing wrong with visiting the sad places in your mind, however; they key to truly moving on is to make sure that those visits are short and become consistently less frequent with time. In other words, if you want to move on, you can visit....but you can't live there!

full steam ahead...choo choo!

Omg,…the holidays are over! Time sure flies when you’re traveling, laughing, staying up late and enjoying loved ones.

I’m back to work today, and I don’t mean just the work that pays the bills..I mean, the work that makes my body, mind and soul happy and healthy.

It’s time to regroup, refocus, organize and start refueling with healthy foods. I took about a 5 day break from my “healthy habits”, and there was nothing all that enjoyable about it (well, ok at the time..it seemed yummy) but I suffered from 3 major migraine headaches during those 5 days. Mind you, I almost never get migraines anymore! So,…3 in one week was madness.

Crazy how suddenly filling my body full of crap and NOT exercising affected me in such a negative way. Not only did I have crazy headaches but I also felt sick and just plain exhausted as I tried to regroup yesterday. But, by the time I’d gotten home from the 6 hour drive back to AZ on Saturday, I had nothing left! I slept for 14 hours that night, and spent my entire Sunday trying to muster up the energy to go grocery shopping, do laundry and clean the house. Well, the house got somewhat cleaned thanks to a LOT of help from my wonderful daughter….and only 2 loads of laundry saw their way through the cycle. Shopping? Uh..no..we just ate the few things we had around the house and ordered take out! lol

Anyways..all of that is behind me now. It’s over, and I do NOT intend to feel the least bit guilty about it. It’s all eyes forward and full steam ahead..choo choo!